Pain. (and good intentions)

I had planned quite a bit for myself to do today after work. Unfortunately for me, at the time of planning I had no idea of the tremendous amount of pain I would be in once work was over. I had planned to clean out my car, clean up in my room, print class notes, read my new book and watch an episode of Roswell. Work was horrendous. I don’t even know how I made it through the day. The pain was awful and intense. I am still in a tremendous amount of pain as I type this. Thank God for laptops, as I am laying in bed with two pillows that are helping to lessen the pain my neck is in and which radiates through my shoulders and spine. The pain is so intense and awful that at times it feels like my neck, shoulders and spine will just explode or collapse. I’m very afraid of how I will feel in the morning, not to mention what might be to come after another seven to eight hours at work on that damn concrete floor. I cannot stay at this new job, for many reasons, but most importantly because it is killing my body. The last thing I need is a broken body.

 

After Hurricane Ike.

Hurricane Ike was the first hurricane I have been through. It was a scary storm to be in. The sound of the wind blowing that night the hurricane made landfall was something awful. I remember being scared and wondering what the different sounds were and what things looked like outside, but now I can hardly remember what it sounded like.

Our house sustained no damage. I can hardly believe it. I’m shocked and thankful. Our house was wrecked by Tropical Storm Allison back in 2001 and has endured a couple of floods since then. Somehow we always sustained damage when no one else did, but in this awful hurricane our house was fine save a small amount of water in the back room and in the garage and a tree from next door that fell on our fence (which has already been repaired). None of our belongings were damaged either. It’s a miracle. Thank God.

We have no electricity but we do have water, gas and a generator. My laptop is running on generator power and I have internet due to my lovely Verizon Wireless Internet. (I love Verizon!) Thankfully, we have also had a beautiful cold front come in to make the days and nights without A/C bearable.

Unfortunately, Jason’s family’s home was destroyed by the hurricane. I’m very shocked by this as well, and saddened of course. I can’t believe their house sustained so much damage and I hope they will be able to get all aid that is available.

Thank God we all made it alive and well through this storm. We made it and I am happy, but I hope I never have to go through one of these again.

 

Thankful.

A lot is going on in my life. Things are starting to get very hectic, very quickly.

The future looks very promising and I could be on the verge of big things. I’m excited and scared at the same time. Dreams and hopes may become reality.

Despite my obvious pessimistic disposition at times, despite my fight with a profound depression, despite my hidden pain, I love life. Life is beautiful. There’s so much to take in. There’s never enough time, but I’m glad I am in it, and I must still be here for a reason. I have so much to be thankful for.